Swallow Hard Too

Maybe, 'perfectly flawed' isn't so banal

Starting with an apology from my deepest parts[just the heart isn't enough] that I haven’t been as consistent as promised earlier in the year. Capitalism owns this game at the moment, forgive me.

Also, a few of my women threatened me with some of the fine things of life, this has oiled my mind and fortunately melted the block. I can be vain too. *wink*

I mean, a little sprinkle of vanity every now and then works. Been doing a lot more self-auditing than usual and very open to naming myself all the things I am, of course, while struggling to banish the fear that comes with seeing yourself as you are.

Introspect. Retrospect. Probe.

Nobody really likes to introspect especially if they have to be candid. How is introspection valid without brutal honesty?

Introspect. Retrospect. Probe.

Actual hard pills, but trust me, they too can be easy to swallow. Stay with me.🤭

We don’t like to probe our shortcomings or stare right back at our mistakes.

Completely nauseated at the thought of our gaffes and if you are like me who fears throwing up more than she fears having a broken ankle, then it makes it even worse.

One of the ways to handle this is a constant and kind reminder to self that you are human, only that, before anything else and half of the mistakes you have made, you are making and will make are as a result of this.

You can’t be human and not expect to err every now and then. That’s impossible.

The very first step to liberty as an adult is accepting the truth of who you are and what you want, above what every other person thinks you are, should be or want.

Be your own mirror and then be stainless.

Give room to see yourself bare as you are, not just as others see you but as you know you are.

It’s not usually cute to see ourselves as we are - flawed, broken, scarred, terrified, insecure, uncertain but the earlier we accept ourselves as we are, the better and easier we get with decision-making and sifting through choices.

You know what is for you - what to pick, what to drop, what to hold on to.

See yourself bare;

beyond your physical nakedness,

in all objectivity,

rid of any kind of bias.

It’s okay to not be totally welcoming of your intangible ugly parts, still, remember that, accepting them is key to a higher version of living that you are worthy of.